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To Edward John Speleers
So many things are like I wanted not to come. There is a fact now that you changed your mind about my work and me ! I can understand what you feel more than anyone and you know it so well I protected your interests and I will do again for the rest of my life, and I’m sure you know it Now it’s time to speak heart opened and to tell you what I feel really and why I reacted like that I don’t mind of what can think people who will read that words
I make all I can to respect your interests in that site into informing fans who like to know more about you and who are unease with translator… and a site it’s so much better than any translator ! So many people like to know you better and I think I can do that well I’m a lucky one because I had so interesting things, from you, from professionnals like Steve Miisiura I thank so much for helping me in my work ! A questionnaire you returned me for example, some beautiful pics Steve sent me, your birthdate, the real one, Simon gave me by e-mail… I just ask for things fan like really to know and to see about you
I don’t mind of your private life, you do what you want ! You know why ? Because first, I’m a real fan who take care of your career and your well being… you can have some troubles to trust in what I say, but it’s true and so many people I know in your fans, many friends of mine can tell you too that I always take care of what I say and put on the site ! You know so well how much I love you ! Yeah, it’s not a secret, I have feelings for you and I don’t use them to make that site except to put my heart on my work, that’s so important for me to see your fans and you happy ! I’m proud of what I made and I’m so happy to see that fans appreciate my work and they comment often in the good way what I made Now I know I’m the only one fan site open, that make me feel more proud again because I see that I’m more a fan than can be the other, I know it’s many work to do to work on a site, and you know that too, but PLEASE, don’t say my work means nothing and fans can use translators to translate what you say, because it is wrong ! You know like me, there is nothing better as a human mind to translate what you feel, what you want to give in your words !! Any translator in the world can translate the love you can give to your fans Ed, and you know I’m right ! Then, what I try to tell is that even if I love you so much, I can do a good job and I ask only to have the opportunity to do it for a long time again.
Now let’s talk about what happened on the site : I think many people are jealous and stupid enough to think I can ask for more from you as to be a contact, to help me on my work… but I sak only to have your informations from the site, your blog, the pics you sent, the link, the things you devide with us !! You know what I mean ? I just like to have the right to have access to the site to have your words to help fans who can’t use a translator to understand and to know what you have to say to them ! That’s all, I don’t ask for more ! I wanted to work on so many projects and I know I can drive this site to become a great one and it’s really important for me, as it’s important for you to be an actor !
Well now, it’s time to apologize for what I saied ! Yeah I saied many things I regret, but I wanted a reaction and I had it, even if it wasn’t the one I expected, I know you are smart and you know what kind of people I am, and you are wrong to think people like Kriss and Nikki can know me ! I don’t want to be like them, I’m a french you know and french people are like english one and so far ! I’m proud and honnest, I never told you lies ! And if you think I did, it’s wrong, I take a real honnor point to be honnest with you more than I could be with anyone ! I love you Ed and I couldn’t hurt you in any way !! I know you can have some troubles to believe in what I say because there are so many people who told you things about me, but you don’t know me really, like I don’t know you really, but the things I know about you are enough for me to know that you are a great person and I would like to show you I’m like you, a great person, friendly, who take care of you , take care of your fans and who respect the man you are !! Every people I know really well since I work on your site, Ed Speleers France who is now closed, and now mine Ed Speleers Official, can tell you how much I love you and I respect you ! I’m one of the people who defend you all the time, who try to tell things to calm down the fans who are so impatients to see you or to have infromations about you… All of that is going to change because you are on many project and that is so interesting for me to work on that and to explain what you do and what you make outside that with Firefly Vision and as a model…
What I want to say to resume, is that I really apologize for what I must to do for you to listen to me ! I’m your first fan, I love to work on the fan site I created about you and I need your respect only for my work. I don’t mind of what you can feel about me, but I need to have your respect for the work I make for you and your fans here ! I’m your devoted fan and you know it so well ! I could make anything to help you to become more famous again and if that means to do that site, I can make it again and again without to think about it a second !! I hope to have your respect like you have mine ! I will be behind you for a long time again because it’s that to be a fan for me, to help, to defend, to inform… to serve ! That is what I feel into making that site and I hope you understand that
APOLOGIZE again, I know I can apologize again and again, that won’t erase what I made, but I like to recover your trust and your respect and the only way I found is to tell you on my site and to explain one time for all what I really feel and what I wanted you to know about me…
My dream was to have the opportunity to meet you to make an interview, to show you what kind of work I make for your fans, to give you gifts I made and fans made too, to trade some experience and to talk about us to know us better… because I know just a part of you like you know a part of me only and it’s not the one I am really ! I’m so frustrated to see that you can have a bad opinion about me because I know so well I’m not that kind of person, I’m stupid sometimes, like anyone can be, I’m crazy to spend my time like I do for you perhaps, LOL can do some humour… but believe me when I say that you are a great ma, and you deserve the time I spend on that site ! Let me a chance to show you what kind of people I am and you will show me that you have a great heart, because I know you have one… we can’t pass all our life to hate each other… I know I must let down your site… it’s a source of discord and I prefer not to go back there, but I need your words and your informations, so I will create a neutral account, I prefer to say to you and I won’t send anything on your site, just to have a look at what you say to translate that here if you don’t mind
Ed, you are the best young man I never met in my life, I would like you to know and I dream to have the chance to meet you really to have my complete opinion ! I know I can’t expect for nothing, but it will be a real honnor to have that chance… the only thing I could ask now, is to have the chance to be a part of a big event like The Good War premiere as any reporter to have the chance to show what it could be to fans, putting pics and trying to have some words from people who worked on it ! I hope to have the chance to have some words from you too of ccourse…
Now it’s time to finish into saying : Have a long life of happiness and glory, I hope you will have a great career and you will have all you are searching for if it’s not already made ! I send you many support and friendly kisses from France and I hope you will forgive me for what I saied and made and I hope to recover your trust and to have the chance to have you by my side to help for my site, directly or not, I just need to be your fan ! That’s a part of me I can’t erase and I want to be for a long time again
Your devoted fan and your friend perhaps… I hope to be even if it’s only on the internet ! ;) Be strong and fight, I’m sure you will have what you want in your life and your career, because you are like me, you are a fighters and you fight always for your convictions ! I’m right behind you to support with my community of fans and you know that I’m sure… Have a long life with happiness and love, you deserve it
Your fan, your friend and your first support
SANDY |